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Posted by darian on August 20, 2014 at 9:10 AM Comments comments (39)
Poetry slam4 Im sick of crying Done with fesling like I'm not good enough Like the blood and tears I've put in ment nothing at all As the lies roll out of your mouth The tears fill up my eyes I can't help but wonder Why do I do this to myself Because I love you so much It hurts, brings me to my knees As I beg for the truth I dont know how to fix this kinda heart ake Feels like a million heart breaks My hair isn't always dandy But I put on make up and try to be Your arm candy I try not to be embraced When you check out a woman when im holding your hand I try not to turn red and hold back my helpless tears Im tired of trying so hard I can't hold the weight of the world on my shoulders any longer Options for poetry slam I hate to see you hurting But youre blind when im in pain You dont see my reasons Mabey if you would see it from my eyes Youre feelings would be different You act like you have it so bad When I do all for you but whipe youre ass Youre self centered My self just so happends to be centered around you I make all my choices around as you & me as a team But latley I've been feeling alone in my efforts Struggling with these stresses and burdens alone Feeling helpless when we speak to eachother Because I try not to affend the fact that you dont put as much work in as I do. I know im not perfect I may not be the nicest somtimes.You tend to shut me out alot and you say our business is our business so if I cant talk to you about us. I have all this bottled up anger and some times I just cry myself to sleep trying to fix our pointless fights but they dont seem to fase you. You are not trying to fix anything even when you clearly know its not all me. I feel lonley in this struggle to make things work its as if you totally gave up. Ive allways showed my support in everything you have done even when I didnt nessasarilty agree with it. Yet you just laugh at me when I cry Options for poetry slam 1 Deam land Some thing is knocking at my window Who could it be The man of my dreams To come and sweep me off my feet And fly away with me Show me they are not all the same Some thing is knocking at my window Its just the rain Untrue He played with my heart Messed with my head Slept around in other bitches beds The shit hes say Made me feel as if he was foreal When he left I didnt know what to do I curled up in a ball and cryed Tears pouring out of my eyes One day here and the Next day gone I still love you with my whole heart even thou You did me wrong. Time_ No matter how mad I get I will never say goodbye forever Because with you in it my lifes A whole lot better You were my first Hopefully my last The time is now and the rest is just My past I'll love him till the day I die To him I'll stay true And never say goodbye The one that I love With my whole heart His eyes speek to me As mine speak to his Ill love this man till the day i die I promise it -fibber- Whatever happened to I love you and you love me and when we older well rase a family those nights we spent Those secrets we shared The times you held me close and Said you'd always be there You looked me in the eyes and said you loved me By why? Did you still hurt me again and again We were suck good friends Now I cant even look at you without Tears in my eyes cuz when you told me you loved me I didn't know you lied Options for poetry slam 2 Was I wrong You asked whats wrong? I replied nothing But I lied Here were tears I my eyes You said oh But I wanted you to know That I'm in love with you But I'm I'm her the one who holds your heart Was wrong to hurt myself with you? -the choices- The suns hot the winds cold my hearts broken Shattered soul My eyes yell my mouths closed tears fall All stops What the hell do you want me to do Chase after you? You left me after you promised You wouldn't I'll never be okay im going to stay I don't have to live this way These eyes have seen love lost This heart has felt heart break But through it all this smile keep smiling When I fell in love I fell so hard when I eventually hit the ground I must have shattered my body Im giving you a taste of your own medicine I hope it cuts like shards of glass as it gos down All I ask for is no lies respect me love me protect me guide me but dont controle me just remember I was there for you when nobody was just remember I was always there for you.. I'll remember that you were never there for me just remember I dont care about you anymore and its a damn good feelingâ?¥ I hope it makes you cry as many tears as I did when we were together Be thankful I have self respect or id fuck all your friends these homies ain't loyal this woman once was that man looks stupid he fucked over a loyal woman to fuck with shady hoes nice choice bro lmao I'm not trying to make you jealous I am simply living my life saying what I want to say and if your creepin and you read my shit and find that I dont give a shit about you anymore thats your fault not mine! Ypu call me crazy because im laughing at what used to make me cry? The method to my madness is I dont care anymore you lost the best thing you could ever had babyâ?¥ I hope you regret it every day just know its the best choice ive ever made in my life lol You just walked right out of my life Left empty handed Left our love behind Should I ask you to stay? How many times dose this make it? You leave I cry The worst thing is You didnt even say goodbye I search for word to make its easier to deal with Pick up the pieces that you left of me to deal with All these horrible thoughts running throu my head You Have people calling me a hoe When you where the only one that I took to bed How could you treat me like this ? How could you leave me like this? And close the door On our love its nevermore Poe said so now my heart is sore You left me in a puddle of tears Probably out there with a hoe Expecting me to do the same? Regardless of what you think I always was that girl you met that summer Who was shy but full of life Didn't want to kiss you Because I know some day it would be our goodbye Some things you dont understand Like how truly pure my love was for you. I wonder if you actually knew What would you do? Would you have fought harder to make our love last Or would you still have thrown it in the trash? Im not tr You said you wouodnt leave I was stuipid it was us less I was blinded I was young I belived in love Now im hurt And im sad You broke my heart it was bad I was innocent when you met me You took advantage of the love you left me Made me feel it was real He dont love me like you would He dont care He dont hold me like you could Im not asking for you to take care of me Just care for me Show me I mean alot to you And if I was gone you'd be lost

That's it

Posted by darian on January 12, 2013 at 1:10 PM Comments comments (0)
In life everybody is pressured to do good to do better to do bad and to do worse stress is a main key in life with out stress we would not solve a thing with out worrie we would not be able to know what we have. I know nobody reads this !

?12-21-12 the day the words to end?

Posted by darian on December 21, 2012 at 3:50 AM Comments comments (0)

i dont know if i belive it...i just woke up from some bad dreams where 3 or more men broke into my housse and i had to kill them it really scared me its 3:51 am where i am rite now. if the world dose end or even a  huge event happens i wanna write down some things that are very important to me just in case..im very gratful to have found my soulmate his name is jordan and ive never loved some one so much..theres so much to love about him<3 his smile the goofy sounds and jokes he makes not every relationship is perfect but if you have ture love you can carry it on and be very happy:) ive found my one and only<3 im also thankful for my mother shes such a strong woman raised 3 kids on her own from the age of 18. nobodys perfect but one thing i have to say is she never gave up on us kids no matter how much trouble we got in no matter what we said or did she would kill some one if they ever tryed to hurt us in any way shape or form i just hope that one day when i become a mother i have a little bit of her in me<3 i thankful for my nana shes allways there to lisen when i needa talk shes giveing mabey a little bit too giving she selters people and its not the best thing to do but thats the way she is and nobodys gong to change that because she would probly break you face she well i wouldnt say scarey but strict and i wouldnt say loud but she loves to get her point across i love my grama she has allways been theere for me when i needed her..<3 i thankful for my little brother and soon to be a mom older sister my brother is so creative<3 just like me hes allways tricking out something like scooters or scate boards<3 hes great at stuff like that hes a very smart little boy hope he keeps it up hes going to be something grate i know it<3 and as for my sister shes having a baby boy i caint wait to be a real aunt my friends have kids that call me auntie but its not the same as really being one..me and my sister allways butted heads she stole my stuff i stole hers but we would never edmit we took eacjothers stuff for the life of us we just argue about it<3 i am very grateful for my little cousin mriaha shes a crazy 1 years old i have the privledge of watching her grow up as she lived up stairs from me she might be one waky peice of tacky but sheso cute and smart know the words mom daad nan and hot and deff knows how to shake her head no she knows when shes doing somthing bad but dosnt care<3 im very thankful for my life<3 sorry for all the run on sencetce..love d.h

nobody said life was going to be easy..

Posted by darian on September 18, 2012 at 11:50 PM Comments comments (0)

people that have a bad past tend to expect the worse in most situations....if life was easy nobody would ever make mistakes..and a world full of people that dont make any mistakes isnt a world at all...mistakes are life lessons you make them you see where they went wrong you try and correct them then you try and move on with the knowledge of how to provent mistakes from happening again..not every ones happy..but its allways nice to put a smile on some ones face..its hard to say exactly how some people think..because i caint understand some people..i dont understand how some poeple can just turn there back on some one so quick..or how some one can hurt some one so innocent? when your walking down the street and you see an old woman carrieing bags of food and one of the bags broke and bread and a can of something would you just walk by the old woman trying to bend over in pain to pick it up or would you with out a dout with out thinking run over and help her , pick them up and carrie her stuff...i would help her i guess you can say thats just how i was raized but im allso not an angle every one has there skeletions in there closet..wether they like to admit it or not..i allways TRY and see the good things in life..and anyone who sets there life on makeing other peoples life a living hell just proves that they have notting better to do and they are unhappy with there own lives..i guess i dont know what im bitchen about but im just going to keep bitchen..lifes like being at the batting cages..there alllways going to throw things at you that your not ready for you just gotta get a grip on the batt and hit that ball out of the park..wow i just thought of that! thats good lol...not every one is going to be on this earth forever is sad to think so but every one dies ! dont take life seriously because nobody gets out alive anyways..yuh know? do what makes you happy..make mistakes..corect them..learn from them..because nobody ever said life is going to be easy!!

nobody said life was going to be easy..

Posted by darian on September 18, 2012 at 11:50 PM Comments comments (0)

people that have a bad past tend to expect the worse in most situations....if life was easy nobody would ever make mistakes..and a world full of people that dont make any mistakes isnt a world at all...mistakes are life lessons you make them you see where they went wrong you try and correct them then you try and move on with the knowledge of how to provent mistakes from happening again..not every ones happy..but its allways nice to put a smile on some ones face..its hard to say exactly how some people think..because i caint understand some people..i dont understand how some poeple can just turn there back on some one so quick..or how some one can hurt some one so innocent? when your walking down the street and you see an old woman carrieing bags of food and one of the bags broke and bread and a can of something would you just walk by the old woman trying to bend over in pain to pick it up or would you with out a dout with out thinking run over and help her , pick them up and carrie her stuff...i would help her i guess you can say thats just how i was raized but im allso not an angle every one has there skeletions in there closet..wether they like to admit it or not..i allways TRY and see the good things in life..and anyone who sets there life on makeing other peoples life a living hell just proves that they have notting better to do and they are unhappy with there own lives..i guess i dont know what im bitchen about but im just going to keep bitchen..lifes like being at the batting cages..there alllways going to throw things at you that your not ready for you just gotta get a grip on the batt and hit that ball out of the park..wow i just thought of that! thats good lol...not every one is going to be on this earth forever is sad to think so but every one dies ! dont take life seriously because nobody gets out alive anyways..yuh know? do what makes you happy..make mistakes..corect them..learn from them..because nobody ever said life is going to be easy!!

nobody said life was going to be easy..

Posted by darian on September 18, 2012 at 11:50 PM Comments comments (0)

people that have a bad past tend to expect the worse in most situations....if life was easy nobody would ever make mistakes..and a world full of people that dont make any mistakes isnt a world at all...mistakes are life lessons you make them you see where they went wrong you try and correct them then you try and move on with the knowledge of how to provent mistakes from happening again..not every ones happy..but its allways nice to put a smile on some ones face..its hard to say exactly how some people think..because i caint understand some people..i dont understand how some poeple can just turn there back on some one so quick..or how some one can hurt some one so innocent? when your walking down the street and you see an old woman carrieing bags of food and one of the bags broke and bread and a can of something would you just walk by the old woman trying to bend over in pain to pick it up or would you with out a dout with out thinking run over and help her , pick them up and carrie her stuff...i would help her i guess you can say thats just how i was raized but im allso not an angle every one has there skeletions in there closet..wether they like to admit it or not..i allways TRY and see the good things in life..and anyone who sets there life on makeing other peoples life a living hell just proves that they have notting better to do and they are unhappy with there own lives..i guess i dont know what im bitchen about but im just going to keep bitchen..lifes like being at the batting cages..there alllways going to throw things at you that your not ready for you just gotta get a grip on the batt and hit that ball out of the park..wow i just thought of that! thats good lol...not every one is going to be on this earth forever is sad to think so but every one dies ! dont take life seriously because nobody gets out alive anyways..yuh know? do what makes you happy..make mistakes..corect them..learn from them..because nobody ever said life is going to be easy!!

what i love about love<3

Posted by darian on September 10, 2012 at 11:05 PM Comments comments (0)

what i love about love is i know that not every moments going to be perfect..but with true love that love that makes your heart skip a beat when you kiss. when you want to be around them because they make you feel full of life ! they make you smile and not that fake smile shit that smile that makes your cheeks hurt..makes you laugh not like that fake laugh like when you giggle the laugh that makes your tummy hurts and you want to pee your pants!!being in love gives you a whole new out look on life<3 you look at things diffrently and if you dont care about yourself as much as they do then thats real love<3 im in love<3 but not that sappy kinda love hes my bestfriend we can hang out and watch t.v  and play football. but im allso very much in love with him<3 he makes me feel good about myself<3 makes me feel beautful! it helps to know that some one understands you and wants better for you and wants me to know that evern if i dont know it im beautful.. for awile i thought that there was no such thing as prince carming..but after what ive been throu...this man thats been there for me all along come back into mylife<3 and makes me fall soo deeply in love with him..even having past history thats wasnt so great..this guy allways treated me rite..allways made me feel good..he asked me back out and i couldnt have been happier<3 im so glad to have Jordan M. Jones in my life i love him with all my heart<3 even thou some times im annoying and some what a bitch you put up with me because we know that we are in true love<3 but im sorry that some times im a bitch<3 4*13*12 im so very deeply in love with jordan m jones<3

what i love about love<3

Posted by darian on September 10, 2012 at 11:05 PM Comments comments (0)

what i love about love is i know that not every moments going to be perfect..but with true love that love that makes your heart skip a beat when you kiss. when you want to be around them because they make you feel full of life ! they make you smile and not that fake smile shit that smile that makes your cheeks hurt..makes you laugh not like that fake laugh like when you giggle the laugh that makes your tummy hurts and you want to pee your pants!!being in love gives you a whole new out look on life<3 you look at things diffrently and if you dont care about yourself as much as they do then thats real love<3 im in love<3 but not that sappy kinda love hes my bestfriend we can hang out and watch t.v  and play football. but im allso very much in love with him<3 he makes me feel good about myself<3 makes me feel beautful! it helps to know that some one understands you and wants better for you and wants me to know that evern if i dont know it im beautful.. for awile i thought that there was no such thing as prince carming..but after what ive been throu...this man thats been there for me all along come back into mylife<3 and makes me fall soo deeply in love with him..even having past history thats wasnt so great..this guy allways treated me rite..allways made me feel good..he asked me back out and i couldnt have been happier<3 im so glad to have Jordan M. Jones in my life i love him with all my heart<3 even thou some times im annoying and some what a bitch you put up with me because we know that we are in true love<3 but im sorry that some times im a bitch<3 4*13*12 im so very deeply in love with jordan m jones<3

what id did..and not proud of..

Posted by darian on August 29, 2012 at 12:50 AM Comments comments (0)

im now a happy person. im glad i can live him life now..back in dec. of last year i tryed to kill myself i od on 67  pill i am NOT proud of what i did it make me relize alot of things like how much my family loves me! who my friends where lets just say they wernt my friends....i have done a compleat turn around sence then my lifes on track now! im thankfull every day for getting to live my life<3 i dont know what i would have done if i died that day..i dont think anyones really going to read this but just saying i dont look for attention from it! dont comment or judge me in anyway shape or form its done i caint take it back i was in a totally diffrent state of mind soo heres the story..i was depressed just like any other teen is but i hit rock bottom..i guess you could say it was my way to escape all of this madness that was driving me insain! i was stupid for doing it and i dont need anyone to tell me what i allready know! like i said if your judging me stop reading! well anyways i took them..... i started feeling really sick ...my tummy hurt and i began to get really warm and dizzy! its like i was allmost drunk! my vision was impared..i walked out of my back door i appeared finee i walked upstairs to my grandmothers house and told her i wanted to take a shower i was really hott! i got in the tub filled it up with ice cold water and sat in it i was dizzy i allmost couldnt see i tryed to vomit them up but they didnt come up! then is when i really starting getting scared and regreting it! the i put all my clothes on and made my way to my grandmothers room i was soaked in water couldt even dry myself off then i belive i lost conscience i slightly rember my stairs i guess when they where carreing me down them? i rember being at the hospital soome? i rember in my mind i thought i was fine they told me i have to pee trying to get me to pee in a bed pan theres mad people in the room so i wouldnt then i dont rember anything i guess my mom told me the doctor asked me who my sister and my mom was and i said my cousins? i dont rember that! after that i guess i just fell asleep for a long time it was about 7 days after the night i did it and i wake up in the hospital in intencive care i woke up i didnt know my name or where i was i was strapped to ther bed..there was a i.v needle in my arm....when i woke up i was soo confused ! the nurses where understanding and helped me they took off the strappes that where tieing me to the bed.. i had marks from them i guess my mom just went home after sleeping there for 7 nights she just went home to shower and thats when i woke up i guess they stapped me up because i was flippen out i dont rember anything!!!!!!!!!! i still didnt know who i was i was waiting for my mom to get to the hospital and i looked over at the phone in my room looked at the key pad dialed a number that i just had in my head it was my bestfriend brittney as soon as i heard her voice i started rembering stuff my family friends people i knew i rembered what i did and i didnt rember why i did it thou?? i still dont to thiss day but after i got out of the hospital i guess i was to be watched so they sent me to this place called c.s.u there where people there called staff you couldnt go from one room to another without asking...if you where bad you went on a thing called restrition...wich ment you had to do house work of some sort when i first got there i still didnt rember everything when they sent me there there was 2 showers in the houses and there was 5 ish people there when i was there ... my mom got me shampoo and conditioner eye liner and if you wanted to shave some one had to watch you wich i still didnt like soo i didnt shave in there..the way showers work is in the staff room there are cuddis with buckets in then each bucket has a person name on it ..its where they put all of your shower stuff the stuff my mom had got me and it was on chrisman week i was there soo one kid whould shower then the next kid! it was horrible!!! i would have visters my mom sister and my moms friend . the most thing i hated about that place was i wasnt home on christmas night ive never missed a christmas at home but when i woke up inn the morning all the kids in c.s.u went down stairs and these people dontated things like a fluufffy blacket coool sockz collerfull scock i had a visit that morning when i went home i braught the presents that c.s.u gave me and gave them to my mother sister and little brother as they gave me there present for christmas i had to be back at c.s.u at 7 on christmas day it was hard leaving my home to go back there but i did it it sucked i cryed every day i was there then one day i come down stairs and my moms down there and she said shes going to take me home i was soo happy!!!!!! but i still didnt rember alot when i got home i went on fb and i forgot my fb password and i forgot how to unfriend some one my mother told me most of the stuff i had to relearn its sad but i dont look for any one to feel bad for me to judge every one makes mistakes....there must be some reason why i came back..i must do somthing amazing in my future because god gave me a 2nd chance..me!!! i regret doing it and every thing i put my mother throu and family ...if i could take it back   STRONGLY WOULD! when i came home i was a changed kid i didnt dissapear i didnt run away i grow up alot..honestly it made me a better person in the end i am soo happy with my llife now and even the thought of me not being able to live it makes me sick and cry i look at my little brother and he looks up to me and i didnt set a good example at all i just want him to be everything im not i want to do everything i never could i love my family and im sooo sorry for what i did to you guys to think i wouldnt be in my room writing this drinking a coffie with the love of my life..mr. jordan jones<3 my mom and her new bf ralf in her room we've finally trust love! my brothers at my now pregnates sisters house hoppefully sleeping by now ive never typed out my whole story of what happend no bodys going to read this but atlest i know i wrote it



never take life for a joke it came all be gone in a bink of an eye please if you think about hurting yourself please tell some one

i didnt hurt myself for attention i hurt myself because i didnt know how to deal with the world at that moments not like im makeing excuses but just hold the people you love closee never let them gone<3


my story....,,,love darian arlene hunter age 17


key to happiness!!!

Posted by darian on August 24, 2012 at 1:40 PM Comments comments (0)

______________________Keys to happiness____________________Take my advice!!

~A good key to happiness is live life to the fullest! Stop and smell the roses, take a minute to stare at the beautiful clouds in the sky! Do what you want to do. I know you dont wanna hear this but lifes short so make it big ! Follow your dreams. Do what makes you happy!

~Another great key to happiness is stop comparing yourself to others, you're you, and dont try to change that most of the time people try to chage them selfs to be some one there are not. They do this to impress some one that most of the cases i see atlest you dont have to take my advice but its helpfull it helped me! Don't try and change yourself for anybody! the truth is if they dont like you for you there not even worth the time! be you!!

~Another stressfull key to happiness is money...$$$ my advice is save dont worrie about it only get what you need and some stuff that you want...dont let money controle you! or let other people use you for it make and honest living allways have a job allways be on time and be in every day your boss with reward to some day! soo im saying dont let it run or ruin your life!

~A great key to happiness is setting goals for yourself! it could be learning somthing new , getting somthing you want, or even doing what you have allways dreamed of doing!! dont set yourself to high and dont set your self up to fail allways keep and open mind! and try your hardest! never give up! allways make steping stones as i call them up to a goal for Ex: My goal is to lean how to draw! set some steping stone like who to call, where to go, and what you will need! never give up on somthing that means a great deal to you because acomplishements is a key to happiness!

~Another key to happiness is in the work place are you happy with what you do? if not whats holding you back from what you want to do? how can you do what you want to do?and if your happy with your job here some great advice i caint stress how much attendance matters in the work place! little do you know your boss is allways judgeing you  like , expressing creavity , helping and supporting and the way you just are as a person! your boss will notice that your a good hard worker! in the work place your work ethic is every thing work your hardest do what needs to be done! and allways try and go beyond if possible show that you can do more then they ask for! 

~A Simple key to happiness is family and friends if you have none get some if your happy alone good but as for haveing family around we know they are annoying but you dont chose how your family !! but you love them! no matter what! friends..now friends is a shady spot for me because people can be fake some times! but i good real friend will allways be there to talk if your having a bad day or your just rambling about somthing stupid like your cat!! good friends never betray you! and tell you the truth never try and hurt you! family can act as a safe blanket you can allways use them for warmth and confort in your time of need! and dont ever forget that!

~A great key to happiness is be happy even if your not! smile even if your sad! becuase happy people see more possiblitys! and may just warm up another sad persons day..nobody said it was going to be easy to smile and act like evey things ohkay but it will brighten your day!and mabey some one elts!

~A good key to haappiness  is maintaining sanity key to maintaining your sanity  is keeping a journal! its just you recording your personal feelings and out looks on things an expressing yourself in a way that nobody can judge! and its fun to read back on how you took diffrent problems and events in your past! its a great key to happiness!

~ A key of happiness is getting rid of the bad people in your life! drama starters for one they can mix you up in stuff that has notting to do with you ! bad friends that betray you anyone that has stolen from you!!! no matter what these people allways take what you have hurt you and leave you with notting cut them off get them out your life because what do they do for you????

~A key t happiness is having a healthy relationship with your partner..not every moment is gooing to be perfect! its a good idea if they cheat on you leave them because 3 out of 5 people who cheat will do it agian just rember relationships are all about communicateing knowing how to stop a fight befor it comes. never after just one fight break up with some one thats how people stay alone for the rest of there day! every one makes mistakes but cheating is unexepible!! but some people put up with it wich i think every one desvers to have a faitfull relationship!



these keys to happiness helped me<3 hope they help you 






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